Man, all that sounded like a different language to me, but I am also a tech-imbercile 😅 sounds pretty impressive, though that you built your own server. To me that basically sounds like magic when people tell me how they build tech related things. It is so cool.
I completely get what you mean with needing a trigger for researching! I’m like that too. I just cannot get into anything if there isn’t some sort of purpose to it. Currently, my worldbuilding project is in hibernation so I went from basically going to self-learning school every moment of the day for three years to a potato. It’s a bit annoying that you can’t just deliberately trigger a thirst for knowledge or have a normal, steady stream of knowledge gathering. It’s either full fucking throttle or it is dead in the water. At least it’s like that for me.
I’m not diagnosed, but my spouse is convinced I have ADHD. He doesn’t believe I have autism, but who knows. Based on some things I have read I do think I kinda display some symptoms from both but I would need to see a professional to have any of this confirmed. And as it stands I just can’t. My first attempt at getting a referral ended with being told by the GP that I couldn’t have ADHD because I have a degree, a job and a partner. Which I thought was very insulting to people with ADHD, but whatever. The second attempt ended with me getting a referral and the GP telling me to go find a psychiatrist myself because he believed I’d be very capable of that. Turns out I’m very much not, lol.
So eh. Now I’m just living my life like I always have. I do what I can to hold on to routines and structure and the only thing that has changed is that I beat myself up a bit less than I used to when I fuck things up.
Have you gotten an official diagnosis? And if so, how was the process for you? 🤗
Man, all that sounded like a different language to me, but I am also a tech-imbercile 😅 sounds pretty impressive, though that you built your own server. To me that basically sounds like magic when people tell me how they build tech related things. It is so cool.
I completely get what you mean with needing a trigger for researching! I’m like that too. I just cannot get into anything if there isn’t some sort of purpose to it. Currently, my worldbuilding project is in hibernation so I went from basically going to self-learning school every moment of the day for three years to a potato. It’s a bit annoying that you can’t just deliberately trigger a thirst for knowledge or have a normal, steady stream of knowledge gathering. It’s either full fucking throttle or it is dead in the water. At least it’s like that for me.
I’m guessing you’re likely also somewhere on the ADHD/Autism spectrum like me.
I’m not diagnosed, but my spouse is convinced I have ADHD. He doesn’t believe I have autism, but who knows. Based on some things I have read I do think I kinda display some symptoms from both but I would need to see a professional to have any of this confirmed. And as it stands I just can’t. My first attempt at getting a referral ended with being told by the GP that I couldn’t have ADHD because I have a degree, a job and a partner. Which I thought was very insulting to people with ADHD, but whatever. The second attempt ended with me getting a referral and the GP telling me to go find a psychiatrist myself because he believed I’d be very capable of that. Turns out I’m very much not, lol.
So eh. Now I’m just living my life like I always have. I do what I can to hold on to routines and structure and the only thing that has changed is that I beat myself up a bit less than I used to when I fuck things up.
Have you gotten an official diagnosis? And if so, how was the process for you? 🤗