

Speaking of YouTube channels, I like Josh Strife Hayes when it comes to talking about toxic masculinity, bad role models, becoming a more positive and better person - things like that, though he mostly does this on streams, clip channel of which is Josh Strife Says.
I like this video in particular, but there are other clips that speak about similar topics.
That’s pretty normal, we all do stupid shit as kids because of our environments/friend circles or just general growing pains.
Recognizing that what you’ve done is actually horrible is the most important step in terms of maturing and growing up, though of course it’s not the full battle. After all, how would someone change for the better if they don’t have such realization?
All in all you’re likely not a bad person, just someone who needs to/is in the process of maturing.