This is so relatable. I attended a school that gave its students a ton (and I mean a ton) of homework, because idle hands are the devil’s workshop (ugh), and I struggled the moment I couldn’t coast through without studying. Then went on to a college with a very similar work structure, and the same thing happened, except this time I quit after failing an entire trimester’s worth of classes. Some time after I enrolled into a different college that had a more hands on approach and I aced nearly every class.
Every trimester we’d have to enroll to a class which would have only one assignment, and you’d start working on it on day 1, and present results on the final day before a panel. The workload was much greater, I had less guidance, and it lead to a more trial and error approach than a step by step guide, but I’d never felt more comfortable or happier in an academic setting. Previously I had thought school just wasn’t for me but it was all in the approach. I just can’t do piecemeal busy work.
And odds are, they already made their choice.