You could upgrade, but if you actually want to learn tech I would recommend getting a server. Grab an old HP or similar machine and chuck a few HDDs into it and install proxmox. Keep all the VMs off your main system and then you can shut down without impacting them. If you mess up badly you will still have your main system to help recover from the mistake.
I think when someone is making a movie or TV show they don’t want to have anything that distracts from the story, so they only show clean lines, clear surfaces, and new enough items that their disrepair or dirtiness is not taking away from the story.
My experience was pretty poor compared to my peers, but I was actually homeless for a period so I think I was legitimately below the standard of the time. That said, rich people pay cleaners to make their house look good. They have good storage solutions, new items, and throw away and replace anything that looks bad.
They are for musicians but are fairly cheap, have a nice carry case which is very small, and let you hear what is happening without losing your shit. They are also easy to clean with hot soapy water and last so far multiple years of daily use. They don’t make you feel like you are underwater and more reduce volume than block sound, so walking around and talking to people is viable.
Hold their hairs that normally fall out in place until they are on camera then shed all at once.
Make their eyes water whenever they are on camera by pushing just a little too much air at them.
Wardrobe malfunctions are an option, but I think making them fumble everything would be better, so they try to hold a pen and it slips out of their hand etc.
Make the camera drift upwards so they look shorter.
Hats, almost completely removed from formal settings and now only in informal settings.
People have a much more rigid and accurate sense of time. You don’t meet for lunch, you meet at 12pm on the dot. People don’t wait for someone for half an hour, they wait like 5 minutes or so.
People talk much more openly about problems and their views. When I was young people didn’t really talk about religion, politics, medical issues, and so on in public. Now people will tell you they are on an antidepressant or LGBT+ and be open about things.
This would be a perfect question for That’s Absurd Please Elaborate.
https://thatsabsurdshow.com/ask
You should also ask if this could solve anything.
They may or may not be helpful, and trying both major types is a good idea to be sure, but the key is to self advocate with your psychiatrist. Some are reluctant to try the meds because “meds bad” but saying you would like to know if there are medications that can help you with emotional regulation, attention regulation, and sensory issues should lead to the offer of trying ADHD meds specifically.
The first dose of Ritalin was a game changer because it gave me perspective. The things that I struggled with were actually harder for me than for other people, so I was not trying to do the same task and failing it, I was failing a harder task. That mindset shift allowed me to start the mental health work I am benefiting from today as well as start actually solving problems.
I think addressing the Autism side of things will be easier with the ADHD side more supported.
Only a small portion of space is almonds, walnuts, and so on, less than half
Gradually escalating unidentifiable whispering. Everyone starts asking if you can hear something, you all start agreeing you can hear whispering but not what it is, then the paradolia kicks in and people start hearing what they expect to hear. The constant gradual increase in volume. Increases the fear and certainty in what people are hearing, but also disrupts sleep and wakes anyone who was sleeping. Soon everyone is awake, sleep deprived, and panicked.
I used a Razer scooter when I weighed 150kgs and the weight limit was 80. It was fine until I went down a main road breaking the whole way and the rear wheel melted and I had to bail onto the side of the road. Still, the metal was fine, just the wheel, so yeah, it can be done, but it can be way too much fun
The low travel on the keys is probably the issue. The machine gun sound of your typing is probably because of long travel with speed making a lot of force hitting the key bed, so having a longer travel will probably help there. Also, chiclet keys are really different to standard keys, they are super flat and have no centering dip so you tend to slide to the edges and have reduced accuracy. Add that to the dense layout and you have a recipe for disastrous typing.
Is this running with Vulkan? Have you tried using other graphics backends like DX or similar?
Have you tried windowed mode? That had fixed a similar issue for me before.
Have you tried running the graphics settings all down to as low as possible, like absolute potato mode, to see if it continues there? If it works as a potato then adding a few things until you replicate the issue will help you narrow it down. If it happens on potato mode then maybe try verifying the game files?
Lastly, maybe consider trying an earlier driver version? Same for kernel? Sometimes weird issues like this are regressions and it was actually solved a few versions back but someone recreated the problem because they thought they were being smart and regressed the issue.
Dude, sounds like as really shitty time. I can see from your post history that you’ve had a bad run with communities (r/autism and their rule enforcement bullshit) and also a consistent theme of not having a very good home life. It sucks and being upset about it is the right first step. No problems there, this does suck, and you should at this point feel bad about it.
That said, that is step one. Your emotions are telling you that things are not OK, so it is a good time to listen to them. That does not mean letting them make decisions though, just let them inform you about your needs.
So next step, you need to know more about autism and ADHD. You will have this brain for the rest of your life and learning how best to use it now will pay off for your whole life. Learning that something is bad for you now means you can avoid it forever, rather than just trying to tank it and be OK with suffering it.
I have read you have seen a psychiatrist. Have you had meds for ADHD yet? Did you try methylphenidate and dexamphetamine? Did you try other meds? I found that dexamphetamine did very little for me but methylphenidate did a lot, so I ended up on Concerta and additional Ritalin in the afternoon. Your experience may be very different to mine but trying a few things is a good idea.
As for your parents, damn dude, having shitty parents is honestly awful. It is not your fault that they are shitty, that is a them problem. You need to take care of yourself and it seems likely that will mean getting out as soon as practical. Given that you are in the EU moving should be fairly easy, and given your English skills you should be able to function in a lot of different places. Maybe focussing on moving in a couple of years could make their bullshit a temporary inconvenience rather than the end of all things? Whatever they think is just their opinion, it is not fact, so if they treat you like shit they are not showing that you are shit, they are showing that they are the kind of people who treat others like shit. You can get out, it will take time, but it can be done.
As for how to manage things now, I would recommend emotionally divesting from your parents. They say you are a junkie for smoking weed? Don’t fight it, just say OK, accept their opinion is their opinion, you don’t agree with them, you don’t need them to acknowledge that you are not a junkie, you can actually just let it go. You are the person who will decide on your values and make your choices. If they want you to be a certain way then they are welcome to be disappointed. You’ll live.
There are some books which may be helpful but they are all in English, maybe there is one in Italian which is easier to really understand for you. First, have a look into parenting. Learn a little about attachment theory, parenting styles, and how good positive parenting is done. Once you actually know a little you can look at their behaviours and evaluate their performance. I would also recommend learning about narcissism, trauma, and cptsd.
Given that you are young and don’t have decades of wealth acquisition behind you it will be challenging to move. Consider what you can do to earn some sort of income and develop your earning capacity. Obviously university is a great option depending on the field you are going into, but if it is not working out maybe look at whether you can finish up with a lesser qualification than a bachelor, say a diploma or advanced diploma. In many places this is basically equivalent to half or two thirds of a bachelor and allows you to finish more of your education later but enter industry now. That could shorten your path to financial independence significantly.
Regardless of what you do, there are options. Some of them suck, some of them are risky, and most of them are hard, but you have survived however many years being undiagnosed and mistreated, you are strong enough for this. Reaching out to other people for help is a strong thing to do and with that reaching you can build a good life for yourself. Don’t sink into a depression because you can’t get out right now, focus on the path you can make out and make active steps in that direction. You can escape fascist Italy and you can make a life for yourself, meet cool people, have friends, have relationships, and do cool stuff, it will just take time and persistence.
Double speed audio.
I have real difficulty with listening to people speaking slowly. By the time they finish the sentence I have lost the start, so unless I actively hold their sentence until it is done I often lose meaning or misunderstand.
Listening at double speed allows me to keep up without losing what was said. I listen to audiobooks and podcasts while doing most chores and it has been a game changer.
It is more than that. In previous studies from the authors they have controlled for the nutritional content and the processing and found that the content itself, so carbs fats etc, have a certain amount of causal influence on health, but the processing also has a separate and significant effect. Just having less processing seems to have a meaningful effect. This means less of the additives like milk powder, xanthan gum, sweeteners, flavourings, extracts, and so on. The exact mechanism seems to vary depending on the specific case, but separating components of food and then remixing them as well as adding non food components and processing with heat and pressure seems to make these things no longer digestible and safe.
I can’t give you any TX specific advice, but for the ADHD related depression and anxiety I can definitely give some advice.
First, CBD oil may be a suitable option. Some is pure enough to not show on a THC test as positive, so that may help. CBD is the part of weed that gives most of the mellow and chill, so it may be enough for him.
Second, depending on his ADHD presentation he may benefit from hard exercise. I find that 5x5 weight lifting is really good, along with some sort of cardio if possible. Lifting heavy things takes a lot of the hyperactive energy away and leaves me clearer.
Third, non stimulant meds. Some people find benefit from things like modafinil and if he could get on that it may provide enough support to quit the weed for long enough to get onto a stimulant.
That said, the USA has really intense laws about stimulant meds as well as a bunch of strange stuff about testing that seems punative. I have meds here in Australia and I have not taken a single test. I know there are online clinics that do ADHD treatment and also there are less than legal methods of getting stimulant meds. I know a couple of people who tried stimulants before getting them prescribed. Maybe that would work for his situation.
As for efficacy, I tried a whole bunch of anti depressant meds, anti anxiety meds, all sorts of stuff, and honestly nothing worked. My k10 was absolutely abysmal and I couldn’t really work. Stimulant meds mean I can work, support my partner, engage in things I enjoy, and live life quite well.
I had to come off my meds for a couple of months while going through a heart valve replacement (unrelated to the meds) and wow, I had forgotten how bad it was without them. They are great, getting the dose and specific stimulant right is important, but yeah, worth every bit of effort. Absolutely life changing.
I will bet nothing, but it is a good idea to make yourself more capable and informed at this time. Good time to learn how to grow food and raise chickens I think.
Hopefully they actually respect his legal rights to some degree and have borked the process enough for him to walk free. It may end up in a total dismissal of all the serious charges with only the possession of a fake ID and so on standing, though given how poorly they handled the evidence maybe not even that.
I have a HP EliteDesk 800 G3 as a server at home. It is small enough to fit on my printer stand, it has two 4Tb HDDs for data in raid 1 and one 256Gb SSH for the OS and VMs to run from. It has 32GB of RAM and works really well. I have a few VMs for managing media, one for my personal jabber server (Open fire), another for calendar and contact sync, and Syncthing. I also have another 16GB of RAM unallocated so far which makes me itch for another VM to spin up, but so far I haven’t had something come to mind service wise. Because it is all off my main system I can do updates, change my HDD, take my machine with me, and I always know my server is OK. The same goes in reverse, I won’t bork my main system when doing server stuff. It is very handy and I find it useful to segregate things, but your situation obviously could demand a different approach. That said, I would recommend it instead of upgrading just because of the stability and segregation of risk.